i hate doctors

soooo i think their might be something wrong with me. but i kind of object to doctors. they claim to tell me whats wrong with me, my parents spend thousands of dollars to get tests, and then we find out it wasn't that. my mom had to get surgery because of this shit. i go to the doctor, my family doesn't eat for a month. i don't like the idea of doctors. everytime i go there is something else wrong with me. 1st is was scoliosists. then is was a damn cyst! now i don't wanna know. my brother says it might be my gaulbladder. sigh

i wish i could have one moment to myself. i don't wanna worry about anything. and now i'm kind of scared of the pain i'm feeling